My Wish
Rascal Flatts. I figured a song about goodbyes was fitting since this is my last post.
I guess now I should start wrapping up this blog. Not only is it due soon, but I also have nothing more to say after this post. I have talked about all the major events in my life except for the update of where I am now.
I started dating this amazing man about 8 months ago. Officially, we've been together almost 7 months. However, we got engaged in December. December 19th to be exact. Trust me, I know how crazy that sounds. This is when adults cue in to tell me how crazy I am, and how I am being a child. I'm too young to know what love is. Here is the thing, I love him more than I have loved anyone. His name is Evan. He is everything I have ever looked for in a husband. I see him and I just about cream myself. He's kind, smart, caring, and his love is totally pure. I don't know what I would do without him.
Because of Evan, I have the other love of my life: my dog, Ponderosa. On one of our dated in October, Evan took me to the animal shelter where I ended up finding the most perfect dog for me. I have her as an Emotional Support Animal. Right now, she is curled up in a ball with her head on my pillow while I sit at the foot of my bed. She's asleep, as usual, but her love is like Evan's: as pure as the sky is blue.
I still have my ups and downs with depression and anxiety. Some days it takes all the energy in the world just to get out of bed, let alone go to class. I'm working with a bunch of doctors who don't know what to do with me, but what else is new?
You know how you have different personalities with different people you're around? Like, around my parents I'm reserved, respectful, and did I mention reserved? Let's just say they know less about me than they probably should. Around my friends I am happy, outgoing, energetic, and slightly more open. Around my best friends and my fiancé, I am very open, free to be in whatever mood I'm in, and be as weird as I want to be. That's the beauty of life, I suppose. Although, some days it's hard for me to see most things in life as beautiful, the ability to be yourself is definitely one of the better things about being alive.
Other than that, everything is the same. I go to University of Oregon as a biochemistry major with the dream of someday working in a crime lab. I just try to make it day by day in this hell hole, trying to be as happy as possible. Evan lives near Portland, which is extremely hard not seeing him for weeks at a time. But I'm making it through. Just trying my best to live life and be myself.
I guess now I should start wrapping up this blog. Not only is it due soon, but I also have nothing more to say after this post. I have talked about all the major events in my life except for the update of where I am now.
I started dating this amazing man about 8 months ago. Officially, we've been together almost 7 months. However, we got engaged in December. December 19th to be exact. Trust me, I know how crazy that sounds. This is when adults cue in to tell me how crazy I am, and how I am being a child. I'm too young to know what love is. Here is the thing, I love him more than I have loved anyone. His name is Evan. He is everything I have ever looked for in a husband. I see him and I just about cream myself. He's kind, smart, caring, and his love is totally pure. I don't know what I would do without him.
Because of Evan, I have the other love of my life: my dog, Ponderosa. On one of our dated in October, Evan took me to the animal shelter where I ended up finding the most perfect dog for me. I have her as an Emotional Support Animal. Right now, she is curled up in a ball with her head on my pillow while I sit at the foot of my bed. She's asleep, as usual, but her love is like Evan's: as pure as the sky is blue.
I still have my ups and downs with depression and anxiety. Some days it takes all the energy in the world just to get out of bed, let alone go to class. I'm working with a bunch of doctors who don't know what to do with me, but what else is new?
You know how you have different personalities with different people you're around? Like, around my parents I'm reserved, respectful, and did I mention reserved? Let's just say they know less about me than they probably should. Around my friends I am happy, outgoing, energetic, and slightly more open. Around my best friends and my fiancé, I am very open, free to be in whatever mood I'm in, and be as weird as I want to be. That's the beauty of life, I suppose. Although, some days it's hard for me to see most things in life as beautiful, the ability to be yourself is definitely one of the better things about being alive.
Other than that, everything is the same. I go to University of Oregon as a biochemistry major with the dream of someday working in a crime lab. I just try to make it day by day in this hell hole, trying to be as happy as possible. Evan lives near Portland, which is extremely hard not seeing him for weeks at a time. But I'm making it through. Just trying my best to live life and be myself.
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